Joined: April 2003
||Posted: Mar. 22 2005, 10:20
Thanks a lot, Jules (EDIT: also Booster and Edo - they wrote their replies as I was writing this), your post was very enlightening. Glad to hear that from someone who's having problems similar to mine!
Okay, leaving the initials TBIII aside before my ears start screaming obscenities, I also have that belief that the definition "bad music" is inadequate in almost all cases. The problem comes when I'm analysing my own music. It's not the kind of enjoyment I get from Mike Oldfield, you see: it's analysing myself, the person I was at the time I made the album, the influences I had, the knowledge, experience, etc. And the really frustrating part is that at the time I was mixing down "The Binary Sounds Of Nature" to its final form, I honestly thought it was awesome, easily the best thing I had ever done. But now, there are several things on that album that are an embarrassment. And yet, I'm very proud of the previous album ("Highways"). I got worse with time?!
It's very tough when I'm looking at my own music, because I'll never know if I can see those embarrassments just because I made it. Everyone here saw me rant about Tubular Bells 2003, and I even jokingly said in my website that the "imperfections" Mike saw on the album are all actually in his brain (that was extremely rude, of course, but everything on the website is). So if I reworked "Binary" now, would everyone think the same about me? I.e. the imperfections are in my brain, after all? Irritating.
I can't just be satisfied thinking that people may be liking something that I think isn't good. Calling someone else's work "bad" is something, but an artist knows his work. And if I think "Binary" sucks, if someone else likes it, them something isn't quite right... I don't want to say they have bad taste, but I'm pretty sure the album is subpar to my standards. Would they still like it if I "improved" it, based on my standards? What if it became better to me, but it sucked to they? I'm not making music just to please myself, and I care about whomever's listening to it (2 or 3 people? ). My consolation is that my issue is only with "Binary" and not with all my music. Of course, I'm not mentioning my FIRST "album", which is a complete pile of garbage and crap and filth with "Water" stuck in the middle. That IS bad music.
Check out http://ferniecanto.com.br for all my music, including my latest albums: Don't Stay in the City, Making Amends and Builders of Worlds.
Also check my Bandcamp page: http://ferniecanto.bandcamp.com